As countless people who have lived with me can attest, (my brother/college roomies/Peter), when I find a song that speaks to me, I like to repeat it. A LOT. My current obsession is a little song by Colbie Caillat, a ditty that was probably intended to help people get over a break up while carting around a box of kleenex. But somehow this song keeps unveiling layers of meaning for me – it reaches deep into my gut and makes me reflect on my life, my calling, my past and future, my spiritual life, my loves – pretty good for a ‘girlie song.’
Lotus flowers, prized throughout Thailand
I first heard this song while in an airport en route in Thailand on our recent overseas adventure. I kept coming back to the song, playing it over and over in different locations throughout Chiang Mai and then on the island Koh Chang – and it kept growing and growing on me. I listened to it over and over in Japan on our layover on the way home, and tonight I found the “settings:controls:repeat:one” function in i-tunes. It’s a very repeatable Liz song.
The melody is half of the power of this song, so you haveto hear it to get the full effect – but here are my favorite lyrics:
If this is how it hurts
it couldn’t get much worse
if this is how it feels to fall,
Then that’s the way it is
we live with what we miss
we learn to build another wall
‘til it falls…
If it’s between love and losing
and to never have known the feeling
I still side with love
And if I end up lonely
At least I will be there knowing
I believed in love.
Go on, go and break
my heart, I’ll be okay
there is nothing you can do to me
that is ever going to break me….
I’m fearless, better believe
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Maya Angelou has long been one of my favorite writers; below are two sections from her contributions to Willa Shalit’s compilation work, titled, “Becoming Myself: Reflections on Growing Up Female.”
– On becoming a woman:
“Becoming a woman is exciting, but it’s hard. It’s onerous, but it’s honorable. It’s satisfying, because people know a woman. When a woman is in a room she doesn’t have to talk loudly. She doesn’t have to carry a six-gun. But people feel safe around her, all sorts of people, people she doesn’t even look like. People whose color may be different and who may call God by different names. People from all generations feel comfortable around a woman. To grow up female with the determination to become a woman is to earn all the plaudits, all the accolades, all the respect that this society has to give. I believe you can’t do it alone. I believe you have to have the ideals of women who went before you.” (p.1)
– On growing up:
“I believe that very few people grow up. Most people grow older, but growing up is challenging. Many people get older, honor their credit cards, matriculate into and graduate out of schools, get married and have children. They call that growing up, maturing. It’s not. It is simply growing old. One has to assume responsibility for the time one takes up and the space one occupies. To grow up is to stop putting blame on parents. To grow up is to care not only about one’s own self but about somebody else’s, somebody yet to come. To grow up is to be in a constant state of forgiving. Forgiving yourself for not knowing better, or for knowing better and not doing better, and then releasing people from your own anger and angst. You must stop carrying them around in their ignorance and stupidity and cruelty, giving them purchase on your back, and always having them to pole and pinch and carry blame…” (p.3-4)